Meh

I started to write the word men but it is how it’s meant to be. I keep finding the same one so I’m overly underwhelmed. My dogs have more to offer as companions. Which is why I gave up dating and got a second dog. Still, the same Meh keeps finding me. Expecting way too much too early and having no respect for my time or me as a person.

Why? Let’s discover this together. I’m a single mom struggling, focused on a better life for my kid. They always have the solution to all my problems and say things like oh baby you don’t need to worry I’ll take care of that, but never actually do. I just need them to shut up and listen, silly me. Some even start to call me names once I’m no longer interested.

They take up every free moment I have and act like I owe them, how dare I not pick up their call or answer a text right away. Like I didn’t have an entire life to take care of all on my own, when I met them. They never listen but also never stop talking, especially to tell you how the world should be. I’m a fool not to let them take care of me, but they can only do that if I follow their specific instructions and behave as their sex slave and lap dog.

So I think it’s just them taking advantage because they think I need someone. What kills me is I love men and I want a good one to love and care for, that cares well for me. I know there are good ones, I’m still holding out for mine. The last one didn’t even have common decency or manners.

I don’t need a man to do things for me, as much as I need a man to be kind to me!! I don’t know why that’s so hard to find. I have decided I’ll keep working on myself until he shows up, or doesn’t. Either way I’m happy with who I am and what I have accomplished on my own.